as deep as a pond (2025)

A collage about visibility fatigue. I think people are often times more concerned with looking like they’re operating with a high degree of depth, rather than just meeting themselves deeply. But I also think that I used to suffer from a touch of that. I was deeply concerned with never seeming like I wanted to hurt anyone. Such a strange fixation looking back on it now. It wasn’t enough to just know in my heart that I never had an ill- will, but I had to make sure other people understood it too. But I think assuming people think and operate the way you do is a safety hazard. It’s also none of our business honestly. It’s also centering your ego in all the most dangerous ways, completely self- inflicted. Proving that even though I wanted to seem well- intentioned, I wasn’t. Because If I was willing to hurt myself, it seems I wanted to hurt at least one person.